I used to not be sad when someone died because I never really understood. Now that my Zero (My best friend in the world) has died I realize how bad it hurts. He was literally my everything. He protected me and cared about me but now that he is gone I miss him so much. I know he would not want me to be sad but it just hurts so bad and none of my friends know or care. It was partly my fault he is dead, I was holding his hand when he died and I still have to go through his things. I understand now, guys. So to anyone who has ever lost a loved one I understand and I am so so sorry.